Sunday, November 1, 2009

i think im pullin back now..

the one month rule is now one more

before i was all happy happy joy joy about me and “daddy” but at this point im not really feeling him like i was b4. idk if its cause i havent been taking my meds and when i dont take them i get hella moody or what but i do know tat i dont feel the same about him today as i did yesturday.

when it come to sex i’m not going to make him wait a month anymore im just going to have him wait until im good and ready and the way it seems that might b alot sooner then he thinks lol. but i feel like saying a month is setting my self up like what if i wait that month and im still not ready to have sex with this person. and them what if i say a month and then its only 1 week not i got a nigga in my ear talking about “i thought it was going to be a month i knew you couldnt wait” yea see i dont have time for that kind of shit.

smh i hate hate hate when someone calles me in the middle of my DAMN writeing it always fucks up my thoughts. this other nigga aka “wana be daddy” cause hes one of daddys firends that are trying to get on gone call me [mind you its 2:21am] talking about what are u doing where are u at. im like nigga really, really wwoommpp. talking bout how we should have kicked it today and that i never hit him up and that “we are just friends on that corny shit” im like why it gotta be corny. he was like “cause it is you know what im about” um can you say womp cause i sure can. idk why niggas think that just cause they are straight up with u, u will be ok and be ready to fuck and the drop of a time and the fact that he’s not cute to me is not helping him. daddy on the other hand is. yea im going to need “wana be daddy” to give up and realize that im talking to daddy and understand that me and him are going to have to just be friends and thats it. but because we live in 2009 thats not going to happen that for i will be talking about his dumb ass again very soon

anywho bk to the topic at hand i just had to get that shit out real quick. so as of now i have no “month” rule when it comes to sex but what i DO have is a when im ready rule. if im not ready they are just going to have to wait this way im not like ok well u gotta wait a month like its a damn test, this way its just well im not ready to have sex with u right now so we just gone have to wait until im ready and i think that guys will understand that awhole lot better then me being like they gotta wait a damn month. cause with the month they are counting down the days so this way it will be just a suprise and everything should go alot smoother… hmmm i think i have a new topic for naybesa.com and its going to be about sex and making a guy wait. i will probably do that later on today.

what else, mmmmmmm i think thats about it for now but when it comes to me and daddy i guess im just going to have to wait and see because to tell the truth i dont think im ready to settle down and have a real realationship again. ive gotten so damn used to just doing me that i dont want to have restricitions anymore. but because its getting cold out its nice to have someone to be with you when its cold out. so we will see what happeneds tomorrow.

**BESAS**

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