you know what spoken word does to me guys. i am sitting here mad as all hell, crying hot, angry tears because i can’t help but to. but don’t worry. i am perfectly fine. i had one of the greatest days and one of the best nights, but right now i can’t help but feel a certain type of way.
see—tonight, HE and i might have just rectified months of stress and hostility. HE and i can finally go out to dinner without arguing. HE and i can finally plan an outing without arguing about who has to drive. HE can finally just chill with my family without feeling awkward. HE and i finally have a chance to be okay.
and that is fine. but, i cannot help but to remember the past. because HE and i don’t have the greatest one. and no matter how far back in the closet we push our skeletons, every so often when we open the door, one or two will fall out.
this is a big one.
please watch and listen carefully. i am sure SOMEBODY SOMEWHERE knows how this feels. i am sure SOMEBODY SOMEWHERE is tired of being unappreciated. i am sure SOMEBODY SOMEWHERE needs to see this, and cry their last cry.
sigh.
THAT, my friends, just might be the TRUEST i have ever experienced because this made ME mad. this made me FURIOUS. this made me REMEMBER. and how long can i reiterate the fact that i am tired of being taken for granted. how many more girls are you going to have to be with until you realize that i complete you? how many more dinners will i have to pay for? how many more nights are you going to spread tangled in my sheets with no commitment?
watch it again. but this time–watch it with a new attitude that you are going to leave that unhealthy lifestyle. tell yourself how much better you are and promise to never be THAT GIRL because i am that girl FOR you. learn for this poet and learn from me
so that when you watch this, you don’t have to feel any type of way…because i already did. and trust me, you deserve better.
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