Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen
- Albert Einstein
Last night, I decided to have a confessiontime, to start the new year without any regrets or heaviness from 2009.
- First, I told a guy I was friend with for a couple of years ago that I had a crush on him then. And that me and a friend hacked his MSN for a year ago. He just laughed.
- I told D-W that “I’m think i’m falling in love with you”. The answer I got was ” you know thats that… kinda a bad choice right?^^”
Eh, Yes I know it’s a kinda bad idea. Like THE MOST STUPID IDEA WHAT I’VE EVER GOT. But it wasn’t a choice… Worst thing is that he doesn’t like me back. It feels like i’ve been in this situation before, like in everytime I try to be happy with someone else.
- I texted B and said i’ve something to say.
He answered: Tell me? 
I said: I have a ‘confessiontime’ (: hm, I was in love with you from about the first time we got together last year until maybe May. Then I got over it and I tried to find my way back to that, but i’m not in love with you anymore. But I was sickly in love before.
Thanks to that I got a silence. I texted again and said that his silence scares me. He asked me to call him and I did. Then he said “I have no feelings for you”. W-H-A-T T-H-E H-E-L-L
For 24 h ago you said you were in love with me and that i’m special and blahblah. (Now afterward I realise how ridiculous it sounds, and I can’t believe I fell for it). I went against all my common sense when I got together with him. Thought it would be different, but difference up in my ass. He only used me for sex (which he didn’t even get). Isn’t that wonderful? Great… I was so naive. I cried a few tears last night, because I was foolish enough to get used. I used to know better. And I wasted my whole year on him. All i had in my was him from December 2008 to maybe May when I finally got over him. Then D-W came along and I was swept away by him and he don’t even like me either. And even if he did, we don’t live in the same country.
I realised I’m falling for D-W when E-B revealed that she made a blowjob on her boyfriend for the first time. Then it just hit me that I wouldn’t go near a naked B. Not even a dressed one. But if there was any opportunity for me to touch Denis, or even be near him… I would take it without doubt.
At the moment i’m a bit moody. E-S were suppose to be at my house by 11 so we could go to the city. And I struggled my way up since I was up until 4, but when I call her she doesn’t answer. Turn out that she fell asleep again she woke up two h too late. I can add that she was a bit pissed last night when I said i’d be tired, and she said she would go home if I was asleep when she came. Annoying.
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